You Were My Friend.

Once a friend, our talks knew no end,

Now even a forward, I hesitate to send.

You preach to me, who gives you the right?
We spoke after months, and all you do is fight!

Your harsh words, they cut at me. I am but myself, how I've always been.
I don't know why you can't see ..

You asked me, I opened up to you, 

I told what was happening, real, true.
But you went and judged me for that?

Judged me for being upset?

It's not like I was sulking over some candy that I didn't get.

You didn't have to see yet another grandparent wither away right in front of you,

If you saw and did all that I did,

You too, would try and cover it with a lid.

Telling people you know what they're going through, 

Telling them what to do instead, is easy too!

All I needed was you to listen to me, to comfort me.
All I needed was for you to be a good friend, to just BE THERE for me.
Sigh.

You were my friend .. Or were you ever?

XoXo,

Ni.

Goodbye.

The tear in that eye as you say goodbye, makes me wonder why, why for you do I cry?

Those times we spent together, we spoke such a lot,
Those were the times we teased each other, we had a blast, we also fought.

We were together for such a long time, we expressed everything that we wanted to say,
Then why, why do I feel something is unsaid, today as you go your own way?

Why do I feel so much pain if you mean nothing to me? Why when you turn to walk away, I can't bear to see?
Why is it only today, that I realize how much you mean? What did I see in those eyes today, that I have never before seen?

"Please don't go!" cries my heart, but my mind puts down its foot, no. Why do you want to stop him when to his success and joy he does go?

"His happiness lies not there, but here" cries my heart, But that I realize today, today, as he decides to depart.

His train has left. Now what am I to do?
I wish he were here right now. Saying. "I want you to come too."
And then finally, all my dreams would come true.

XoXo,
Ni.

All It Takes

All it takes for me to smile is hear you say I did something right,
All I need sometimes is one tight hug to make it allrite.


A few true words, to cheer me up,
They convince me that maybe life doesn't completely suck.


I don't need expensive gifts, nor do I ask for exotic things,
A simple 'I Was Just Thinking Of  You' will do,
Coz maybe I was thinking about you too!


A simple Good Morning can make my day start off with a smile,
Because forwards may make me laugh but they only last a while.


I don't want you to move me some mountain or name a star after me,
Just your talking to me makes me happy!


All I want is to know that you will always be there for me,
I'm not asking for too much, can't you see?


I mean it when I say that all I need to be happy is for you to always be there for me,
Genuinely liking me, caring for me.. That is what makes me happy!
That is all it takes!


xoxo
- N